Rui CarmoIt’s been a harrowing couple of weeks.
My return to work (such as it is) has had far too many ups and downs for me to enjoy (or even go into any real details), and although I probably shouldn’t really be as stressed as I am, the overall feeling is accurately depicted above.
I’m (again) finding it hard to relax–most of the personal projects I had on hand in mid-August have stalled, and there’s just too much I left up in the air before going on vacation to just pick up and keep doing.
And (go figure) even copious notes don’t make it easier to effectively reboot some of those, especially the coding and hardware projects. In fact, reviewing the notes has so far led to more neovim configuration bikeshedding than actual revisions (or steps forward).
The mixed blessing here is that I have a bunch of stuff to review that I have been testing.
Reviews have turned out to be a great thing for me–they’re pre-scoped (i.e., I know what I want to do, test and write about), they’re mostly self-contained (actually, everything I review fits into the broader picture of my projects or consulting work somehow), there’s enough exploration and experimentation for me to relax (a bit), but they do have some time constraints (even though I don’t get paid for them and don’t schedule them, I do feel like I have an obligation to just not sit on the stuff they send me).
So instead of driving myself up the walls with everything else that’s going on, I have a decent outlet for my abilities–and, right now, finding an even better outlet for my abilities is the only thing that matters to me.